I can only ever perceive my friends as those who use me and abuse me. I can’t stop being condescending back to them. I feel stupid all of the time; I miss things right in front of me, and overanalyse others. I hate my job and can’t decide on even the vaguest career path. I am constantly scared of religion, and feel hopeless and useless.
I wish that I could have a nervous breakdown so that it would all stop and go away.