i had a 1380 on my SAT’s in high school. it’s definitely not a perfect score, but it’s higher than most people i know. unfortunately when i applied to schools, i was an idiot and said my major was computer science for every school i applied to. here i am, i’m probably smarter than most of the goddamn snobby indian kids, i could have made something of my life for the last couple years, and i wouldn’t have had to deal with a bitch ex. but it’s all because i was held down by everything around me. i want to study but my friends always want to party and get high or drink. they have no ambition sometimes. they think that it’s okay to rot away in this stupid small city, and never finding out what else there is to life. i sometimes just want to break all their noses in one fell swoop for holding me back and laughing at me for wanting something bigger. i love a few of my friends, but some of them i feel like we’re only friends cuz we’re the refugees left behind after the smart kids got transported off to prestigious schools. they sometimes talk about how they learned a lot about life by being left behind, and how people in universities don’t know anything about life, as if there’s more to learn about life in this city. what they don’t realize is that it’s just bitterness and spite to justify the waste of three precious years of life, spent living at home. honestly my friends, fuck you guys sometimes. all i ever wanted was to try and all you want is to just get by. we aren’t a part of the same world. fuck this shit. and fuck indian people that don’t speak a word of english teaching math. seriously, go fuck yourself. your horrible communication skills fucking affect people’s futures. i’m all for equal opportunity, but not when my education is dependent on some bitch that would lose to a retard in a speech and debate competition.
