i think i love him but im afraid to say it, he’s leaving next year and i dont want to make him stay with me if he wants to go off and fuck university girls, theres nothing i can do to stop it anyway.
im crying right now, but i dont have a reason to. i dont think im depressed. if i was depressed other people would be able to tell. no one can tell when im sad.
im always sad, and im always happy. tho most of the time im not actaully happy, its just easier to pretend then dealing with people pretending to care
i feel neglected. which is stupid. i just want someone to talk to. but i went and fucked that up. the one guy that i felt comfortable talking about anything to, i gave him the email of one of my friends and now they will probably start something. so now all he talks about is her. or if i talked to her about him. or whatever. and i miss him, almost as much as i miss my boyfriend. the other guy who i talk to everything about, all he really thinks about is him and his Gf. if i start talking about how much i miss my bf or how im worried about something or whatever he’ll start going off about howmuch him and his gf love eachother and miss eachotherand i want to kick his face in.
this was alot longer then expected. im sorry.