I’m so afraid my boyfriend of 7 months is going to cheat on me. I really think he won’t, but he’s away at college and there are so many sluts out there, and he drinks a lot..
He loves me a lot and promises me that we will get married and have children.. but I’m really scared that he’s just going to end up being a man of broken promises and I will never be able to get over it if it’s true.
I get insanely jealous sometimes for no reason. He can be worse than me most of the time but when I get jealous, oh it eats me from the inside. If he were to cheat on me I think I would kill the bitch. Sometimes I imagine him fucking some random no-faced whore and it makes me rage. Love is hard. We are so mad for eachother but what if that were to end? So much wasted time it would be, and I don’t think I would ever be able to love someone again.
I think about him all the time. He doesn’t think of me quite so often but that’s understandable. I see him every week and it can sometimes be really really bad, but most of the time it’s amazing. I like to fuck more than him. I love sex. Mmm sex sex sex.
I don’t know why but recently I’ve been getting mad about things that I never used to. I get jealous if he watches porn at college. I get mad when he doesn’t call me. I feel like I’m losing him when I’m definitely not. I should feel more secure as time goes on but I just feel more and more insecure.
My only comforting fact is that I’m really good looking for him and I think I’m one of the only people who could even try to be with him.