at some point in the last year, I have become someone i don’t like. i hate who i am now, i can’t stand to be by myself, i can’t stay sober, i smoke all day and pop pills for no reason. im fucking up in a good school, where i have a BS major, i just dont feel comfortable in my own skin at all anymore. i cant focus on my work. i just waste time on the internet, and get high, and fuck my girl on the sly because her friends hate me.
my life sucks and im not doing a damn thing to fix it and i can see it getting worse but i cant stop myself.