I’m in love with a guy whose gf positively despises me. I have a hunch he still has feelings for me (due to circumstances, we never actually started dating past one or two dates). We flirt constantly and he hates talking about *her*.
I derive pleasure from watching their relationship fall apart and as well as being the “other woman.”
I’d never follow through with fucking him behind her back but I think about it often.
People say I torture myself, but deep down inside the torture of waiting for something that may never happen is like a drug to me.