about 6 months after my mother died when I was 11 yrs my father came into my room naked and started to rub me I made alot of noise and he left, as I lay in bed that night I thought back to the months since my mother died and realized he had been building up to that night, one day he asked me to give him a kiss and when i went for his cheek he pulled me into his lap and kissed my lips, another day he was going to bring me swimming to a quiet spot we went to alot but when I came down in my suit he sent me up to change into my bikini instead and my stepmom came home so he said he changed his mind,…etc. Well my secret is that I told my brother who told my stepmom and my father denied it and I didnt stand up for myself I just let everyone believe I lied and still now when I am around him It hurts so bad, not because Anything happened because it never got that far, but because I love my father so much and I know that if he really loved me he would have told the truth he would not have made me look like a liar. My secret is I wish that my father could love me.
